Just a Breath

Oh Lord, make me know my end

and what is the measure of my days;

let me know how fleeting I am!

Behold you have made my days a few handbreadths,

and my lifetime is nothing before you,

Surely all mankind stands as a mere breath!

Surely a man goes about as a shadow!

Surely for nothing they are in turmoil;

man heaps up wealth and does not know who will gather!

And now, O Lord, for what do I wait?

My hope is in You.

Psalm 39:4-7

Our past week has been hard. Very hard. Again. God is good to remind me as I hide myself away to pray and seek His peace in the midst of the chaos of our children's past trauma and the current pain they cannot escape that my life is but a breath. We are like a shadow. So many agonize in turmoil over fortunes and great gain that they can never fully enjoy. On these days that are so painful for our children and even for us as parents of hurt children I can honestly admit that I long for days that are pain-free and care-free. There will be those days. These days are but a breath. This momentary life in the flesh, loving these precious children will last but a moment. God is good to remind me what I am waiting on and where my hope is - not in their earthly healing or in a peaceful, carefree day. If that were the case I'd be disappointed until eternity. No, my hope is in God.

Oh Lord, make me know my end

and what is the measure of my days;

let me know how fleeting I am!